This morning around 3am or so, I woke up to my entire body vibrating uncontrollably. It felt like every cell of my body was undergoing a radical encounter. I don’t know how long it lasted, and what I saw, I’ve yet to even begin to process, but I was quite literally wrecked by waves of Love last night. Whoa.
if God gives me my deepest dreams, hopes, and desires He is good.
and if He doesn’t…..He is still good.
He is enough.
and I will find my satisfaction in Him alone.
There is still something in my heart that burns for Redding. Most times I feel like its a selfish response to my difficulty entering an encounter here at BASSM, but then, there are moments like these when it seems to be the most authentic expression of my heart. It is unimaginable to me to say goodbye, or even see you later, to the community I have built here, but I may end up asking Holy Spirit if I can go again…
Be still my heart and know.
•go to the bathroom to escape
•feel very uncomfortable without a phone or some other crutch
•dwell on a small awkward moment for much longer than necessary
•never go to any social event without a person that makes you feel comfortable
•follow said person way too much
•worry about the person beginning to find you obnoxious
•faking an illness to get out of a social event
•Dont buy something necessary because the cashier is intimidating.
You’re made from love, to be love, to spread love. Love is always louder, no matter what. Even if hate has a bullhorn, love is LOUDER.
The godfather of design, Dieter Rams and the undisputed current king of design, Sir Jony Ive, the Sr. Vice President of Apple Inc. talk about the principles of design and simplicity.
This clip is taken from the documentary Objectified. Its one of my favorites, and these two men are some of my heroes. Check it out on Netflix!
I’m not sure why I have to process all this crap at one time, but this is a lot, God. I’m so tired, and sad, and frustrated. Just….yeah.
Simplicity is not the absence of clutter — it’s getting to a place of almost naive obviousness, where what you need to do seems clear and inevitable.Jony Ive (via)
I am not defined by my sexual abuse. It was not my fault. The shame from it is not mine to carry.
I’m sure I’ll unpack the amazingness of this more later, and you can expect a “life update” text post about it then, but right now this alone holds epic revelation for me.